Just this one thing that keeps life from being perfect right now...

I just don't know what to fucking do, and I'm ready to explode!DX
What do you do when one of your best friends just disappears on you? She just stops talking to you, ignores you any time you text, call, or see her at events... she finally tells you what's going on, and it was just a misunderstanding of some sort. You correct the problem after 5 months of darkness, or so you think. A week or so passes, and things go back to how they were earlier in the year. Sudden drop of communication of all forms. You fool yourself, saying "oh, she's probably just busy or something" knowing full well that she's just forgetting you, not caring. She posts on facebook, and tumblr all the time, she's not busy you dumbass. A couple more months pass, and you see her a few times at friend's parties or whatever. She ignores you... What a shocker -.-
You text her every so often, send facebook messages, post to her wall... still ignores you. when you see her again in person, she says "oh, sorry about not getting back to you, I've been busy" but that's obviously bullshit. Every post from the last month or 2 has been stuff she's been doing with other people. You slowly see her forget about you through all those posts, letting other people take your place. The thought slowly starts to creep in to your mind that you were never really that important in the first place- she was just humoring you, or using you to entertain herself because you were all that was around. 
You decide to give her a final goodbye, a quick private message online, telling her how much she means to you despite how hurt you are. Out of 7 or 8 people out of the thousands you've met, she's one of them- those people you are truly yourself around, you keep no secrets from. You that tell her that no matter what, she's always going to be one of the few best friends you've ever had... that you love her in every way, and that you'll be right where she left you if she ever decides you're important again. 
Every day I am reminded of this torturous emotional pain. Every day, I live this personal hell. My life is going incredibly well for once, in every way outside of this. But like anyone with a problem, even the smallest imperfection can outweigh the happiness. I try to enjoy myself as much as I can, but it's hard. I miss talking... that's the least I want. Can we at least TALK again? Even just ONCE a week?!
No, I am not allowed such reprieve. The possibility of forgetting that person, and all the impacts she made on me... isn't actually a possibility. She resonates in my thoughts, my dreams, within our group of friends, and online. Every waking moment of every day, I see the phantom of what I thought once was. Maybe it really was just a very strong illusion. I may never know, but it doesn't really matter now.... does it?